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--is finally nearing completion, and *ahead* of deadline. Saints Preserve Us, I just may finish it up this week, and have a whole week to review & edit before sending it out to betas on September 1st. (0.0)   

The studio has been a god-send. We are moving (I say 'we', b/c the studio is a shared space b/w myself and several friends) the studio to a new unit around September 1st, so it is probably a very good thing I'm nearly done, since I'll need to be packing my little corner up the week after. XD

BUT! If I can get this smaller OF done, I will finally allow myself to tackle my big projects again. (The larger, 3-part, Song-dynasty-based YA that's planned, along with finishing up the monstrosity that is a fanfic, "Merits"; maybe a few other fics I wrote but didn't finish.)

I need to finish something. Whatever this internal hurdle is that keeps tripping me up and making me stagger when I get close to the end of a writing project, I need to see *something* through so I know I can do this again. Too many issues at work (aha! targeting is fun) have demolished my self-confidence in everything I used to just *know* I was very skilled at/in; I want to know I can finish something and be good at it, again. ^_^;;  *constant need to be praised? Why yes. Miyazawa Yukino am I*

But being less than 6,000 words from my word/story goal? It is amazing to feel like this again.

*cautiously optimistic*
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Possibly the best thing I've done for myself in a while: joined up w/ my friends @ their new studio.

I had a new (massive!) desk delivered to the warehouse's loading dock this evening (and OMG had a great time w/ my 2 y-o son working the freight elevator as we transported it piece by piece to the studio on a beat-up old dolly); it isn't 'brand' new (Kijiji, I'm single-handedly funding you in KW at the moment), but it's a very, very nice one, and it is a 'corner' desk (wraps around), with detachable sides so I can re-arrange them as needed. *^_^* Finally, room to lay my notes out and *still write*!!!

It has been AMAZINGLY helpful to have my own little 'space' again; and more importantly, I'm finding I'm finally *focused* again. I hadn't realised how distracted I'd become until I was sat down at my keyboard the other night @ Studio 2, at 11:45pm, typing away and realising, "... wow, how much have I done?? I've been at this for some time, uninterrupted, haven't I?..." And you may think that's a stupid comment to make -- but until you've had kids, or had a S.O. who *constantly* has both his PC running listening to internet radio, watching videos on it, and watching TV (ALL SIMULTANEOUSLY), or everything at the same time (and then he or they start up random conversations when they *know* I'm trying to work)... I learned (probably out of self-preservation) to just not invest myself in anything. Because it was so frustrating and disappointing to be constantly interrupted. (And this doesn't make me proud of anything I do, because it constantly feels like a half-assed effort. My writing over the past few years reflects that, too, unfortunately.)

So, new space? Totally worth it. :D Once I get the new desk assembled, (and bring in a kettle & tea pot & cup or two), it will be damn-near perfect. I may only be there from 9pm - midnight (possibly later on weekends, if S.O. ever decides to wake up early on weekends to take care of the kids so I can sleep in a bit... -- and yes, I really am hanging out in a vacant warehouse studio by myself and walking to my car alone at midnight on a work night, mostly just to write crappy fanfic XD), but so far, even just the *feel* of working away at what I want to do has improved. I feel productive again; I'm resolved to do things; I work hard all day *knowing* I have something all to myself to do when I finish up the housework & get the kids to bed. And I don't need to deal with anything *outside* of WHAT I'M DOING AT THAT VERY MOMENT. I don't even have internet access at the studio, and I like it that way. Butt in chair, hands on keyboard. (Vicki So has great advice.) XD That's it. That's how I like it.

I'm pretty tempted to make a post like myaru's to show off the new space once the desk's up & put together. XD It isn't much to look at, but I'm proud of it b/c of what it affords me. I may finally get the feeling back to go back to working on some of my OF (original fiction), too, if things keep going this well. (We'll see...)

And now, before I completely blow my stack at S.O. for interrupting me 8 times in the 20 minutes since I've been home and tried to type (I went to grab tea/coffee w/ friends this evening, instead of going to studio tonight), I'm going to go brush my teeth & read in bed away from him. >_<;;;; Because he's trying to talk to me (when it suits him... in between plays on the Jays game...), and I shouldn't be getting cheesed about that, I'm just short-tempered b/c of the interruptions, not *him* per se. And I do *not* want to take silly things like that out on him. ^.^;

(I had a lovely time w/ my friends tonight, btw. They are awesome!) *^_^*

Now, off to bed. (B/c he's interrupted me another 4-6 times since I wrote that last paragraph, and I'm grinding my teeth.)
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Not sure if I'd mentioned this before on my other LJ(s), but a few of my friends have had a studio space of their own for a little over a year. It was basically a big open studio in an old warehouse downtown; I admit, I loved hanging out there, when I could get out to see them there. They're all artists -- some paint, some are professional costumers or designers, others do graphic design work -- basically it was a creative workshop where you could do your own thing and no one bothered you. Rent was shared, you had your own designated space to work in, you had friends to socialise / work / collaborate with, and everybody shared their knowledge / experience / tools, happily. It was a great place.

Problem being, it wasn't the greatest building: there were thefts & vandalism, and overall, the place was getting too run-down to be safe (the property management company weren't doing anything to upkeep it -- it was getting outright dangerous.) It was to the point where my friends had to start going to the bathroom down the hall in groups, and they brought pipes with them. The freight elevator had been busted for months, and the broken glass wasn't even being picked up anymore. (Coincidentally, one of the windows in the outer doors to the building had been smashed out the day we moved them out of there, about 2 weekends ago.)

So my friends recently moved their studio and offered me a little spot in the corner of the new space for myself -- which, after I'd thought about it for a while, I took them up on. :D I paid the whole year in advance (I admit, I splurged & took some money out of my TFSA so I could help them secure the space--well worth it), and my little spot is ALL MINE, and I moved my desk, chair, a lamp, a microwave, etc., in all this past weekend. Some friends even helped me transport a mini-fridge there last week (which I bought from Kijiji!), and this past weekend I rented a little U-Haul and bought a $50 leather couch (also from Kijiji! It's an awesome couch!), and have made it as hospitable as I could for now. (Seriously, the couch is big, comfy, black leather, with reinforced footing & only one tear--along a seam--which can easily be sewn up. I couldn't believe it.)

I took all my notes over to Studio 2 tonight, along with boxes of reference material, and sat down to EDIT. It was wonderful. Two friends happened to be there working on their own projects (one girl was setting out a sewing project, the other is an artist currently working on her own writing project), so I had great company. It was nice and quiet and cozy and I finally felt like I could work & relax at the same time. I may bring in my looms, too, and another desk or table, if I can so I can do my own weaving & sewing again. ^_^ I may only be able to go late at night, but it was so nice to GET THINGS DONE without hearing the TV going, or another person's computer blaring, or the kids whining. I could *focus*. Do you know how rarely I get to focus and work uninterrupted? At home--never.

Again, I'm not sure how often I'll make it over, but I am so, so happy to finally have a little corner of my own. : )

We are currently looking for one more person to join us in the space, to make the rent a bit more affordable, but I don't think we're too stressed about that yet. (If you know anyone in KW looking for a creative space like this, send along their resume!) XD

I'm really looking forward to making use of my little space. (^_^)

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