Prompt: Fake Dating
Rating: T, maybe M later
Squicks: Misunderstandings, loss of family, misunderstood intimacy
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Part Six || Part Seven
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“You’re quiet,” remarked Hashirama on Tuesday afternoon.
Their producers had left them alone in the recording booth, heading down the hall to the recording studio lounge with the rest of the band for their break. Tobirama had remained to re-tune his guitar for their next set. Hashirama had initially followed the others but turned back when Tobirama failed to join them.
“I ran twice as long yesterday,” said Tobirama.
“Training for a marathon? Or trying to clear your head?” asked Hashirama.
Tobirama continued retuning his guitar.
Hashirama’s brows drew together. His voice lowered. “What is—”
“It’s nothing,” interrupted Tobi.
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Surreptitiously, Hashirama studied his sensitive little brother through the afternoon. Everyone always thought that he, Hashirama, was the emotional Senju, but they were wrong. It was Tobirama who felt his emotions most intensely, and buried them even further down.
Something was bothering Tobirama. He had seemed fine through the previous week…
Was it the memorial?
Was it the fight in the cemetery?
What could have…
Hashirama lowered his chin, pretending to re-read the notes on his hand-written score. His fingers traced a bar of the chorus, the cheerful refrain jarring against his introspection and concern for his family.
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Let me be your dragon
I’ll help you burn them to the ground
Let me be your weapon
To destroy their painful sound.
Let me be the one
To praise your burning sun.
Please let me be the one
To taste your bittersweet tongue.
Let me be,
Let me be the one.
They forged you into their shield
And made you take their fall
I’ll be the sword you wield
I’ll cut them through, and all
I ask in return
Is that you take a minute,
Just a minute,
To breathe, and love, my love,
Love yourself most of all
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He refused to acknowledge it.
He wasn’t like his brother and Madara.
He wasn’t there to profit from another’s misery or suffering.
But the words had poured out of him when he’d sat down after hearing Sakura pour her heart out on the piano. She had shaken something inside him and now he couldn’t figure out where to put it back; or even if he really wanted to…
In the wee hours of the morning in his home studio, rubbing his bleary eyes, Tobirama dropped his pencil and exhaled the anger that burned in his chest.
… he didn’t want to.
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How long did it take to get the music right?
Hours.
Days.
Weeks.
Months.
It wouldn’t let go. It had to be perfect. It never was, though. It haunted him. He changed the key. He changed the instrument from guitar to piano and back again. None of it was quite right.
Finally, to try and rid himself of its possession, he turned on the recording switch and entered his smaller home studio. It was the middle of the night, but he needed to do something about it.
So he closed his eyes, opened his mouth, and poured out his soul.
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When Tobirama hadn’t responded to any of his texts in a week, Hashirama’s panic set in. He finally broke down, smashing through Tobirama’s door, and scoured his warehouse for signs of life.
He found Tobirama on the floor of his home studio, papers scattered around him, the red RECORDING light above the door normally barring others from entering and interrupting his session. That morning, though, Hashirama shouldered the door open, ripping the lock from the wall.
Then he grabbed Tobirama, threw him over his shoulder, and raced to the hospital.
“I’m done,” mumbled Tobirama. “I’m fine.”
“The Hell you are!”
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At the race track, Sakura removed her full-face helmet and pulled her phone from the pocket of her fire-proof suit.
“Do you need a minute?” asked Genma, her coach.
“Yeah, please,” said Sakura, brows furrowed as she flipped to her messages.
Ino’s text appeared on her screen.
“Tobirama in hospital for exhaustion. Madara said he’s going to visit. Do you want to send anything?”
Sakura frowned before leaning back against her car.
Tobirama? But, Tobirama had always been the steady one…
Biting her cheek, she dialed.
“Hey,” said Sakura when Ino answered her call. “I need a favour…”
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Grumpy, his IV irritating the taped incision in his hand, Tobirama ignored the porter who wheeled yet another over-sized flower arrangement into his room.
“It can go to the intensive care unit,” he repeated for the hundredth time that day.
“Considering how much effort I went to to sneak in here to check on you, that’s really rude, Tobirama,” retorted a familiar voice.
Freezing, Tobirama stared at the porter as she peeked out from the overdone fern fronds and winked at him.
“So what happened, Tobi,” cajoled Sakura, glancing around. She toed the door shut and closed the blinds.
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He stared at her.
Sakura hopped up on his bed, peering at him with soft eyes.
“Hey, c’mon. This isn’t like you,” she said, picking at his thin covers. She smiled at him, her brows furrowing. “I didn’t want to send a message in case… well, you know what it’s like…”
He couldn’t help staring at her. Why had she come?
“What do you need? I brought you a notebook and some pens—um, in different colours, because I couldn’t remember if you liked blue or black or…”
He looked down at the gift.
“Thank you,” he said, accepting it.
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“You were burning the candle at both ends, weren’t you?”
He shrugged.
“Oy,” said Sakura, smacking him on the shoulder so hard his eyes widened. Her tone gentled. “Get better. Stop making me worry. You’re a good guy, Tobirama. I… I never said thank you, after you saved my life, that night with Sasuke, or when you apologized, at the memorial… but I never forgot. I’m sorry I didn’t make time to express that. You are appreciated.”
Clearing his throat, Tobirama nodded. “Thank you.”
“I’ll ask Madara to bring you some lemon tea. Your voice is rough. You singing now?”
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Several days later, a yawning Tobirama answered his door at home in a rumpled white t-shirt, loose jogging pants, bare feet and bed head.
The blond bombshell in large, dark sunglasses smirked at him and shoved a gift basket into his arms.
“Sakura said to take care of yourself. She made this up for you personally with her favourites, including her special honey-lemon tea, so you better use it,” said the blond.
“Wait, what is—?”
“Text her later to say you got it and thank her,” she added. “I’m Ino, by the way.”
“Thanks…?”
Ino grinned and left.
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When Tobirama had first arrived home, he’d been pissed. Hashirama had replaced his doors and locks, but Tobirama still hadn’t forgiven him for barging into his residence.
His only consolation was to find his messy studio… still a mess.
It was embarrassing, since he prided himself on his organized life and home, but… he could admit he was a bit relieved that no one had intruded on his studio more than absolutely necessary. He knelt and collected the abandoned papers from the floor.
When he exited the tidied recording room, the blinking light on his mixing board caught his attention.
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… love yourself most of all…
Tobirama paled and turned to stone. The rawness in his own voice sent chills down his spine. The recording faded away.
That’s… that’s what he’d sung?
The recording went on, catching his final sigh and collapse, and he winced at the noise he made as he fell to the ground on the storm of papers. The dead air that followed was uncomfortable.
He rubbed a hand through his hair, swallowing.
He lifted a hand to the mixing board, his fingers brushing the DELETE button.
“You singing now?” Sakura had asked, interested.
… He withdrew his hand.
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Ino at her side, Sakura strolled into Hashirama’s mansion later that day, smiling brightly at the attendants. She rode the elevator up to his private wing and nodded at Ino, who waited there while Sakura continued alone.
And hour later, Sakura returned and left with Ino, off to their next appointment.
The next day, Hashirama swallowed and looked around each corner as he entered Kakashi’s office at the label’s office. He sat in a corner, his shoulders hunched, glancing around furtively and speaking softly.
“What happened?” asked Kakashi.
“Shhhh!” Hashirama’s eyes were wide in his pale face. “Don’t summon her…”
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“Here are the scripts you’ve been asked to consider. Sorry I couldn’t e-mail them, but the production teams are being very tight-lipped.”
“That’s okay. I prefer reading on paper,” said Sakura, accepting the bundle of spiral-bound scripts from Tsunade. She leaned back in her seat, crossed her legs, and began to read.
“Kakashi called the other day.”
“Oh?” Flip. Flip. Flip. “How’s he doing?”
“He apologized on Hashirama’s behalf and begged that you please forgive them for not realizing Tobirama’s exhaustion.”
Flip. “I like the first script.”
“Sakura.”
“Yes?”
“… Thank you for checking on Tobirama.”
Pause.
“… Anytime.”
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TBC